Not for me (New Song)

I don't wanna talk to the fly on the wall

I don't wanna talk to nobody at all

I don't really wanna be alone tonight

but feelin like this, i can win this fight

I guess you could say that i've given up

i wasn't ever aiming for a first place cup

but my soul cant even hope to survive

in a place that only ever tells it to die

it shouldn't be this hard

it shouldn't take this long

its taken this much pain

to see that this is wrong

All my "friends" try to give me advice

i can see them fake it, trying to be nice

they don't even know what goes on in my head

every night when i lye awake crying in bed

I know it seems im just being negative

its hard when you're alive and don't really live

just going through the motions, movin my feet

hiding my emotions without being discreet

it shouldn't be this hard

it shouldn't take this long

its taken this much pain

to see that this is wrong