OOOoooh HEY!  I forgot I even had a blog. But uhhh.. i suppose i should fill in a bit. a ton has happened that i dont even think its possible to fill things in completely. so. I guess this blog will just have to be about my failed relationships since thats all i ever write about!  I fell in love again. surprise surprise. it was awesome. then for a lot of legitimate reasons he said that it just cant go anywhere but that he is still madly in love with me. its all very confusing and i cried about it for like a week. but now im okay and im learning how to be friends with him again... which really is so hard. And im still hurting pretty bad... but we just try to stay out of each others way to avoid causing anymore pain. its dumb. I feel like screaming in his face "I may not be able to fix your problems, but i can make sure you never face them alone" which is all i wanna do. just be there for him.  But he has chosen to be alone. (literally forever) and even said "I will never get married, so at least i can say i had one great true love" and what would usually make me feel all twitterpated inside made me want to poke him in the eye. anyway. im ranting more for myself than for anyone who might read my blog. but i guess you guys are on the in now! congrats!