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My computer is being fixed at the moment, so im borrowing my fabulous roommates computer. (thanks erin) Well things are getting better here in Hawaii. ive started to change my attitude. The other day when i was so lonely i could die, i went for a walk around campus and ended up finding a secret place where i could have a nice pity party for myself. I cried there for about an hour and then went home, took a shower, and read my scriptures. Ever since then i have felt great! I think it may have been one of those things where you let your emotions build up for too long and you have to have a dramatic outlet.
The ways my life has gotten better.
1. Im being set up on a blind date by my co-worker Nate and im actually excited.
2. I love my job at the cage, the people are so nice and its really chill.
3. im learning espanol!
4. I start my papers in the next few weeks to go on a mission in January!
5. I have a crush on a kid from England. (it might just be his accent)
6. I actually enjoy reading now that i found hunger games.
7. I learned how to play an F chord on my guitar, opening the song possibility to infinity!
8. The sadness I felt over Dan is slowly going away and im accepting him more as a friend.
9. I go to bed early now.
10. I have much to look forward to.

and thats all i have to say about that.

im so lonely i could die

So Dan the man and i broke up last night. It was mutual and not like super dramatic or anything... he is close to going on his mission and were so far a part that were practically just friends anyway so we decided that this will be better so that we dont expect so much from each other when, really were not in that serious of a relationship. im still sad to be in an "open relationship". basically im single... but im not interested in anyone else and i dont really want to be. my heart still belongs to dan.

three days...

well, next tuesday i head back to the land of Aloha. i feel like im having a tug of war in my heart because im for sure ready to get back to school and i miss my house and im excited for my new roommate who is taking spanish with me! its going to be a party in our room all the time! but then ALL the people i really care about are here and as much as they promise to come see me or stay in touch.... its just not the same. my friends have always been my family so life gets really hard for me if i dont have certain friends to help me through. like, you know how you crave certain foods? well i crave my different friends and being on an island a bazillion miles away is SO HARD! But... im going to start looking at this differently. im going to get involved in school stuff. im going to work out everyday. im going to quit my stupid job that i hate and get one i like. And im going to reach out more to people who may not seem like i could be friends with them... because im sure there are a ton of people out there who would make awesome friends but we just fail to introduce ourselves. well anywho... its late... and ps my blog sucks so if anyone wants to help me make it look better please feel free to give some pointers cuz im electronically challenged.