Loneliness has punched me in the face. and it punched me good and hard. But no matter how many people i hang out with or parties i go to or movies i watch.... it doesn't really go away. its just there poking me in the eye... just kinda annoyingly. then all the sudden it just jumps up and gives it to me right there in the face. there is only one cure for this type of lonely. and it lives in oregon. poop.

sigh...

I miss my friend dan. He is my most bestest friend and i love him with all my heart. Here are more reasons why i love him so. He is always honest with me about everything, even if its arbitrary. and sometimes he is so honest it hurts but i would rather not have things sugar coated. He never gets angry at me and would do anything to get me to smile if im sad. He would die if he ever thought i might be mad at him (which i rarely am). He is really really cute :). He always wants to do something fun, but can make sitting around fun too. He lets me rub his little face whiskers when he doesn't shave. He didn't get mad when i accidentally elbowed him in the face... or when i gave him a flat tire on his long board... or any of the other times i abused him on accident. He never tells my secrets and always listens to everything i tell him and even remembers some of them! (do all guys have problems with that? haha)

He continues to love me even though im kinda weird and kinda crazy... but he always lets me know that im not alone. He is kinda crazy too and he is a NERD! He also lets me know that I am a geek :). He tells me to go for what i want and to never compromise anything that i love. I hate that he is so far away now. I really really feel like a little chunk of me is missing. I don't even know what to do with myself. ( just like that white stripes song). and it especially sucks that every single thing is Laie reminds me of him becau

se we pretty much painted this town red. sigh. oh how i love him. He does this funny thing with his eyebrows when he is concentrating on something and when he is feeling silly he starts rolling his R's and will talk in that accent until he knows its bugging me. He always gives me his I pod touch over night so i can play games on it. he gave me a sweater, two pillows, a blanket, and his favorite transformers shirt to remember him by. I gave him a note. and a kiss. like ten of them. wish he were here so i could hug him. he is my love.